The second night after you blocked me.
You did not disappear. You disappeared me.
That was what it was.

I cannot carry you, you said.

But I did. I carried you all the way up 8 floors of stairs the first night we met.
And you have no memory of that.

You said that I was conservative. But it was you who said we can't be together because of age difference, background, and nature. How could that be open minded?

I did not pretend. When you were sick I came. Immediately. How many can do and will do that?
I care all the time.

But rejection kills me. More than once. How am I suppose to go on if you keep doing that?

So, you are back.
I must be the biggest fool in the whole world.

I never expected that you'd noticed. That soon. 

Maybe after all I do have a place in your heart. Even if that is hatred. 

I only did that because it was too much for me. I can never hate you. And you actually know that.

 Come back and claim them. Do miracles on them. I know you can.

別矣，吾愛。

受得起妳的考驗，懲處，折騰。 只怕這真的是永別。 故事不應該這樣完結。