Worried with paranoia about you for a few days.... and then I saw that.... 

I remain the biggest fool in the world. 

I miss you so much....

Maybe it is my fault after all.
I failed your expectation.
But how could you be so merciless, so unforgiving. You know that I've already endure a lot. A whole lot more than the others.

看見妳的痛，我也很痛。
但我甚麼也不能幹。不可以。

You cried for help.
But what can I do.  So much that I wish I could but I cannot. You refused me. I don't even know if I'd get in touch with you again, who would you react. Probably gone mad again.
The pain is there again, it never went again. There is so little I can do.
How can I approach you again.

I suddenly realise, a part of me died. Couldn't be revived. And I don't know which part it is.

想妳的時候，內裡總是百感交集。沒埋怨妳，最低限度，沒有怪責。怎說也好，不足的是我。犯錯導致如今田地，大抵亦始於我。

可是，能不挽回嗎？何以如此極端，決絕。
沒有轉機嗎。

明明是相通的。

是夜以後，可以肯定，妳比她好一萬倍。
但又如何，同樣的，我不懂得如何彌補。